Motherhood......

Okay, so no I'm not a mother and it's not Mother's Day, but in a recent conversation with a special someone about kids I put some serious thought into motherhood. I know that I am not ready for kids (financially or mentally), so I take all measures so I do not end up with any unexpected children. But on the other hand I do feel that once I become a mother I will be well prepared, because I have been surrounded with women that I feel are wonderful mother's.

First being my mother. We never see eye to eye, but I am so grateful for who she is. She is sometimes overprotective but always loving and a good example for those looking to her. My mom raised all three of her children without help from our father. I have never heard her speak a bad word about him and just recently when he fell ill she was right there at the hospital with us. She gives her all to give us the world even though we are often unappreciative. I pray that one day I can show my children the same love she showed us.

Second being my younger sister, I cried when I found out she was have a baby. And though she is a new mother (my niece is 2 1/2 months old), I have learn so much from her. She is my baby sister so I have to retain my urge to take on the responsibility for her. But she has shocked me so much. She loves her baby and has given up so much for her. She is continuing with school and adjusting her life. She is still with her babies father, but knows that her child comes first. I was there when she gave birth and I was do proud of her for "taking it like a soldier" (lol insider!). She has matured so much in such a short amount of time. I pray that I will someday have her courage.

Third being my Grandmother. Through everything she has been there for me. I still remember her words to me the day I left for college "your going to finish, right?" I answered "yes ma'am". I have seriously thought about quitting, but I keep going when I think about her. I have watched her be there for all 5 of her children, then turn around and taking in other children with no hesitation. I remember when I was younger she would come out a jump-rope with us and ride bikes with us, we were all shocked because who would have thought our 55+ grandma would be able to jump-rope; that day I learned to never underestimate her. She has this unique way of disciplining you but making you feel good about it. I often remember getting in trouble and thinking "man that hurt my feelings, but for some reason I feel happy". I love my grandma because though she is under-educated, she excels in every other aspect of life. I hope that when I have grandchildren I will be able to so them this type of love, Unconditional love.

Though there are many other mother's in my life that can make this list I do not want to continue the list on for days. To all of my aunts, sisters, cousins, and family friends that are mothers thank you for being wonderful example of women that give life and raise wonder children.